At age nineteen, Kassi Underwood discovered she was pregnant. Broke, unwed, struggling with alcohol, and a thousand miles away from home, she checked into an abortion clinic. Afterward, to her surprise, she felt free.
Three years later, after settling into a sober life at her dream job, she felt unfulfilled and started thinking about the pregnancy she didn't keep. When her ex-boyfriend had a baby with someone else, she shattered. But in the depths of a blinding depression, Kassi refused to believe she would "never get over" her abortion.
Inspired by rebellious women in history who used spiritual practices to attain emotional freedom, Kassi embarked on a journey of healing after abortion—a road trip across the United States with pit stops at a Buddhist "water baby" ritual, a Roman Catholic retreat for abortion staffed with picketers, a crash course in grief from a Planned Parenthood counselor, a night in a motel with a "Midwife for the Soul," a Jewish "wild woman" celebration hosted by a wise and zany rabbi, and a wedding ceremony.
Dazzling with warmth and leavened by humor, this absorbing memoir captures one woman's journey self-discovery that enraged her, changed her, and ultimately enlightened her.
Kassi Underwood is the author of the memoir May Cause Love (HarperCollins, 2017). She is a coach for women who find themselves at a turning point in life. Kassi is also a public speaker who has appeared live on MSNBC and NPR. She taught writing at Columbia University and her work has been featured in The New York Times “Modern Love” column and podcast, The Atlantic Monthly digital, Women's Health, Best Self, Bust, The Rumpus, New York Magazine, and many more. A student at Harvard Divinity School, she is host of the YouTube series, Spiritually Blonde.